I don’t believe you – P!nk

I don’t mind it
I don’t mind at all
It’s like you’re the swing set
And I’m the kid that falls
It’s like the way we fight
The times I’ve cried
We come to blows
And every night
The passion’s there
So it’s got to be right
Right?

No I don’t believe you
When you say don’t come around here no more
I won’t remind you
You said we wouldn’t be apart
No I don’t believe you
When you say you don’t need me anymore
So don’t pretend to
Not love me at all

I don’t mind it
I still don’t mind at all
It’s like one of those bad dreams
When you can’t wake up
It’s like you’ve given up
You’ve had enough
But I want more
No I won’t stop
‘Cause I just know
You’ll come around
Right?

No I don’t believe you
When you say don’t come around here no more
I won’t remind you
You said we wouldn’t be apart
No I don’t believe you
When you say you don’t need me anymore
So don’t pretend to
Not love me at all

Just don’t stand there and watch me fall
‘Cause I, cause I still don’t mind at all

It’s like the way we fight
The times I’ve cried
We come to blows
And every night
The passions there
So it’s got to be right,
Right?

No I don’t believe you
When you say don’t come around here no more
I won’t remind you
You said we wouldn’t be apart
No I don’t believe you
When you say you don’t need me anymore
So don’t pretend to
Not love me at all

I don’t believe you

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Sober – P!nk

I don’t wanna be the girl who laughs the loudest
Or the girl who never wants to be alone
I don’t wanna be that call at four o’clock in the mornin’
‘Cause I’m the only one you know in the world that won’t be home

Ah, the sun is blindin’
I stayed up again
Oh, I am findin’
That’s not the way I want my story to end

I’m safe up high, nothing can touch me
But why do I feel this party’s over?
No pain inside, you’re my protection
But how do I feel this good sober?

I don’t wanna be the girl that has to fill the silence
The quiet scares me ’cause it screams the truth
Please don’t tell me that we had that conversation
‘Cause I won’t remember, save your breath
‘Cause what’s the use?

Ah, the night is callin’
And it whispers to me softly, “Come and play”
But I, I am fallin’
And if I let myself go I’m the only one to blame

I’m safe up high, nothing can touch me
But why do I feel this party’s over?
No pain inside, you’re like perfection
But how do I feel this good sober?

Comin’ down, comin’ down, comin’ down
Spinnin’ ’round, spinnin’ ’round, spinnin’ ’round
I’m lookin’ for myself, sober

Comin’ down, comin’ down, comin’ down
Spinnin’ ’round, spinnin’ ’round, spinnin’ ’round
Lookin’ for myself, sober

When it’s good, then it’s good, it’s so good ’til it goes bad
‘Til you’re trying to find the you that you once had
I have heard myself cry ‘never again’
Broken down in agony, just tryin’ find a friend, oh, oh

I’m safe up high, nothing can touch me
But why do I feel this party’s over?
No pain inside, you’re like perfection
But how do I feel this good sober?

I’m safe up high, nothing can touch me
But why do I feel this party’s over?
No pain inside, you’re like perfection
But how do I feel this good sober?

Bipolar will take the best of you, if you let it.

Bi, stay strong!
Stay strong!
Control yourself, Bi.

You can do anything you want.
Hold on.
Don’t let you yourself take anything away from you again.
Don’t let your darkness break you down to hell again.
Don’t!
Don’t give up on yourself, Bi!
Bi, I’m calling your name, I’m calling my name, I’m calling us to stand!
Pls!

Music and Jogging

Jogging without music = get tired easily, get bored easily, cannot really relax your mind, lack of ideas.

Jogging with music = everything I need to keep me healthy and calm after a hard day. 🙂

Just me and music, we run through the hard life, run through pain, run through the loneliness, run through the stress, run through the limit!

Every Teardrop Is A Waterfall

I turn the music up, I got my records on
I shut the world outside until the lights come on
Maybe the streets alight, maybe the trees are gone
I feel my heart start beating to my favorite song

And all the kids they dance, all the kids all night
Until Monday morning feels another life
I turn the music up
I’m on a roll this time
And heaven is in sight

I turn the music up, I got my records on
From underneath the rubble sing a rebel song
Don’t want to see another generation drop
I’d rather be a comma than a full stop

Maybe I’m in the black, maybe I’m on my knees
Maybe I’m in the gap between the two trapezes
But my heart is beating and my pulses start
Cathedrals in my heart

As we saw oh this light I swear you, emerge blinking into
To tell me it’s alright
As we soar walls, every siren is a symphony
And every tear’s a waterfall
Is a waterfall
Oh
Is a waterfall
Oh oh oh
Is a is a waterfall
Every tear
Is a waterfall
Oh oh oh

So you can hurt, hurt me bad
But still I’ll raise the flag

Oh
It was a wa wa wa wa wa-aterfall
A wa wa wa wa wa-aterfall

Every tear
Every tear
Every teardrop is a waterfall

Every tear
Every tear
Every teardrop is a waterfall

Every tear
Every tear
Every teardrop is a waterfall

Riding aimlessly on street, music was in my head. Started to cry.
First teardrop, I’m in hell. Can’t breathe and I’m numb. Feel like I have no friends, no friends who ever really care or even know about my feelings. Feel like I’m an robot so people don’t believe that I have feelings or soul or heart to be broken. Somewhere in my body hurts, really hurts, but I don’t know where. I’m tired, maybe for the sleepless 48 hours, or maybe for her cold words. I don’t know anything now. Just riding and feeling the pain running in my veins. So I’ve just found my tear – The first teardrop, I’m in hell all by myself.

Second teardrop, I think about the people who is dying somewhere out there. And then I want to cry more, but wonder what for (?!) at the same time. I’m still alive. I can’t die, no I can’t just die and feel free. I was born in this life for reasons, to pay for Karma. Was I? I’m broken into pieces, but I know I’m not the only one. There are too many people in this world for me to feel that I’m the only one who is in the bottom of sadness.

Last teardrop, who care if I have anyone or what I’m feeling now. Who care. The world won’t stop and stare. People won’t listen ’cause we all have our own scream. So now, I decide to stop screaming and give more chances to listen. Listen to the sound of this life, the sound of hope and love. I find my soul in heaven. Yeah I’m crying, I’m broken and hurt. But who care. I’m still alive, standing on my own feet. I’m my own saviour, always, and if you’re feeling down now, come take my hand. I can be your hero too.

I’m not robot. I have a heart which content the biggest love; a sould which can heal the pain; and strong hands which can plant a beautiful life.

Monday, Jan 02, 2012
I found my tears. 🙂
Bi

Think back and replay your year; if it doesn’t bring you tears of either joy or sadness, consider it wasted. – Ally McBeal

Hope Is Here

Hello there,

I’m back, here, with my blog and lovely people. It’s been a while. Wow. I’ve been drowned in work, work, and work. 😦 It’s the end of a year, you know. A lot of things to finish. Okay, but now I’m here again, after getting busy with life’s worries, and work, I just want to say “MERRY CHRISTMAS” to everyone. 🙂

“Everything is okay in the end, if it’s not ok, then it’s not the end.”

Best regards,

Bi

Blame it on me

“A friend to all is a friend to none.” – Aristotle

Tonight I spent time alone walking in the park, as usual, listened to music and started to think about every random things. Suddenly, I thought about friendship. I felt…bad. Yes, I have a lot of friends, acquaintances, etc… but if you ever ask me “What is friendship?”, I think I will be unable to find the answer for you. Sometimes I saw my friends talking about friendship – about how much they love each other; how much they can do for each other, and in my mind I started to wonder “why, how, what, are they?”. And after all, I blame it on myself. I always feel lonely whenever I’m in a club with my friends dancing around me, or I’m alone in my room. Yes I always feel that lonely. Maybe I don’t know how to show my love, I don’t know how to keep a friend, I don’t know anything about how to build friendship.

I’ve thought I could write down my whole feelings and what was in my mind. But now, everything is gone. I can’t find my words. I’m having a headache now. Too bad. Maybe I’ll talk about this topic – friendship – later.

And here is a cute song about friendship.

Friday, December 09, 2011

Just another ordinary day.

Bi